Knowing you changed my life.

More than living under the same roof,
Following the same routine,
Day after day.
More than cooking together
And organizing my freezers
Playing with the horses,
Watching chicken football
Cleaning the pig pen or chasing a loose steer
The endless wheelbarrows of mulch
That lasted through the heat of summer
It was the late night talks
Even if you were stalling to go to bed
It was discovering new strengths and talents
In you and me
It was the comfort after a difficult phone call
Laughing til our sides hurt
At the new girls
Struggling with the chores
Or Cindy’s way of cooking and cleaning


We shared many memories
Experiences that could never happen
In the real world
Protected and sheltered
Loneliness was often a good friend
So was regaining a childhood once lost
As I poured out my heart, in hopes to help
You may never know
The ways you helped me
Watching each other struggle
And love reciprocated daily
A sisterhood forged for eternity

Forever grateful for the chance
To know and love you
Continually gives me hope
You have been the change I wish to see in the world
For you are truly set apart from the rest
The selected, the few
Chosen to make a difference
As you have made in my life
So, go and never forget
You are hope, life and every beautiful thing on this earth.

Love

Some thoughts on love...I'm working on bringing my journal entries to this blogsite! :)

To live fully, you must love completely. To love fully, you will definitely be hurt, broken, often to end of the reach of hope. There you must make a decision. To live or not. For without love, you have no hope, thus, no purpose for living. But with each breath we unconsciously breathe, there is always a whisper of hope, the promise of something great, something beautiful just within our grasp. ~~E~~


To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket—safe, dark, motionless, airless—it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable…The only place outside of heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all dangers of love…is hell. (CS Lewis)


Romance is the deepest thing in life. It is deeper even than reality. (GK Chesterton)

It is impossible for hope to exist without love. When I think back to the times when hope felt long gone, the presence of love in my life also seemed distant. All it can take is a single heart, believing, hoping, loving; inspires my soul to great things again. Yes, to be loved, as I am, truly is my greatest source of hope. ~~E~~

Thanks for tuning in...

Especially to my girls, this is for you. Thoughts on life at the farm and after. Written to express what I have experienced with the hope of sharing what I have learned to encourage or avoid similar mistakes. :) With you, I share my heart as always. I carry you in my heart, for good and bad, unconditionally and eternally, I love each and every one of the chosen ones, my girls, my daughters, my sisters, my sources of hope.